how i wish i could just shut you out from my world,
and yet another part of me just wish that you could just remain in my heart...
i struggle to get you out of my head each time you budge into my life.
why must it be at this point of time that i keep meeting you, why is it so coindential that you will appear at the place i will be at this point of time?!
here i am trying very hard to put all my heart into my studies, but i get distracted each time i meet you...
this feeling for you have been here for six years, its been that long till i don't know if my feelings for you is real or just a habit...
i just seriously hope that i could just forget about you for another 31 days...
i don't know if i should be happy or not when i see you...
the way you treat me is really ambiguous.
you seemed friendlier recently, but the feeling is different from the past.
i seriously don't know your feelings towards me.
i just hope that it doesn't change much from the past.
if it did, i hope that we can remain very good friends...

okay.
celesther had succesfully made me feel the stress.
she said ive only 7 days for each sub.
thats scary okay.
so i decided to do this list.

things to stay away from:
-youtube!
-hotshot!
-luo zhi xiang!
-xiao gui!
-frh!
-she!
-bfb (after xiao zhu takes his 2 months leave. LOL.)

okay, above are practically all my videos lah.
shall see if i can live without it.
but i will feel so not updated with the news when i dont watch them.
argh. alright shall just get news from ppl around me. (:
and 933! woots!
heh.

SHALL GO STUDY!
SCARY!!!!~

cant wait for sat! (:

爱人的那一个
往往在不完美中 给 完美
被爱的那一个
却总是在完美中 找 不完美

i seriously dont know how to react to the news ive heard.
im super worried for her.
being the only daughter and super dependent on them, its really hard on her...

everything seems so scary now...
o's is coming.
and im still having a freaking f9 for 2 of my subs.
everything seemed so perfect for her, and her fairytale was destroyed in a blink of an eye.
we seriously have to treasure the times we are spending now with our loved ones...
its really very scary...

just feel like posting over here.
hah!

okay, just fin watching olympics.
women tt team match, Singapore VS China.
hah, kinda expected who is going to win right, but still, GREAT JOB SINGAPORE!
you guys played well! (:

kinda pissed with my whole family, okay maybe not my father. but still a little.
HAH
my mother was the worse.
no sportsmanship at all.
watch with her can vomit blood one.
LOL.
if i ever really going to continue shooing and if i ever really get into some big big competition, im not going to let my mother go watch man.
LOL.
seriously lah, sports is not about winning or losing.
its about how well you played it and if you enjoyed the game or not.
it doesnt matter if you win or lose.
you will always be a winner if you played your best.

ah shall go study already.
bye!